i really need some time to think

i really need some time to rest

my body has been feeling numb. i dissociate by scrolling on the internet, and well, it's hell out there. there i see bodies with no life. i come back to myself, i don't even know how to claim this body. i'm not sure whether it needs a rest, or a scrub. i sleep hoping i'll figure it out the next day, or maybe i'll feel something catching up to shughuli za kimaisha